By Elise Haskell

The DC News Crew 2009
I have two more days of classes, and then my college experience is over. Come Monday I will be starting a seven-week internship, my first taste of real life and payoff for spending all this time and money on an education.
Five minutes ago someone asked me how I felt about all this impending reality. Well, for the past few days I haven’t really thought about it. My mind is so focused on finishing up final projects and packing for my trip (my internship is nowhere near my house) that I haven’t really let the fact that I’m about to start a new chapter in my life sink in.
All right, I’m letting it sink in… and suddenly my chest feels a little constricted. Thinking about the uncertainty of what comes next… it’s making me feel a little scared to be honest.
I have no idea how well prepared I am for this internship and all that comes after. The logic side of my brain knows that I’ve learned so much in college that I shouldn’t be worried, but the irrational side keeps imagining me showing up on Monday, becoming completely overwhelmed and having some sort of breakdown. To be honest, I’ve been in school so long I didn’t really think it would ever end. I know a lot of people feel like this when they get to the end of college or university, so I don’t feel like I’m crazy or anything.
This is natural. This will pass… Oh god, this will pass, right? Saturday morning I’m not going to go on the lamb just to avoid reality, right? Surely once I get all my schoolwork done on Friday I’ll have two days to gather my thoughts and go into this internship ready to face whatever challenge they throw at me. It’ll probably be better than school, I’ll probably have a lot more fun doing it – because it’ll be real. The unfortunate truth of the fact is it doesn’t matter how scared or confident I feel about Monday, I won’t know how things will go until I walk into that newsroom and start working.
So I might as well stop being scared of it, I should just finished my projects, pack my bags, take a deep breath and get to work.
(Disclaimer: I’m not trying to argue that school isn’t real, but I think we all need to admit that it’s not real life.)
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